What Would You Say To Yourself?
I watched this video this morning, and began to wonder what I would say to my twelve-year-old self. My first thoughts were “the bullying will stop”, “you’ll get better looking”, “you’ll never use advanced math so don’t worry about it”…I think I would also advise myself that some things will also get worse, hurts change, though they hurt just as much. Perhaps I would be philosophical and suggest that time is going to accelerate at some point, that no season is really as long as it seems. I wonder if I would think I was just another obnoxious twelve-year-old, self-righteous and theatrical. I don’t think I would have sought much advice, for I always felt like I was getting too much of it anyway.
The truth of the matter is, I talk to the kid inside me all the time. It’s where certain adult wounds cut deepest, for there don’t seem to be the right kind of band-aids, where my greatest feelings of inadequacy are under-protected despite my years of learning how to hide them. I am certain I wasn’t as prescient as this guy was as a twelve-year-old boy, to even think of making a video before videos were ubiquitous.
So I pose the question to you – if you had the chance to talk to your twelve-year-old self – is there anything you would want to say?