Hi my friend,
The night was sleepless and I’m wide awake…and the co-existence of contradictory realities seems to prevail. I am a contradiction in terms – held together by the small inhalations between words. You’d think that living within duality would at least offer up some deep slumber at the end of a day. Ha.
Here’s one for you – I stopped believing in atheism a long time ago (yes, an oxymoron with a little hint of humor). About the time I stopped writing everything in lower case and pretending that I was a potential hybrid of joni mitchell and e.e. cummings. That said, I still belief in disbelief, if disbelief equals wonder and incredulity and stuff that’s just really hard to believe.
I believe in God. I believe that there is something that I can’t adequately explain and seek daily, even though I know it’s there. We have conversations (ok – I do all the talking, but given my profession and personality, that’s not too common). Perhaps as my sister notes, the older we get, the more comfort we seek – whether it be in a more spiritual grounding, greater connections with others, opening our eyes and arms a bit wider – or all of the above. One’s world may become more circumspect while one’s outlook widens….see what I mean?
I believe in humankind despite our reiterative behaviors of intentional cruelty and deplorable injustice. It exists within the same construct as acts of graciousness and generosity that I witness everyday. I cry over both. And a sunrise can be as comforting as a sunset. Go figure.
So much for the theory that it can be absolutely one thing or another. Life is beautiful and unforgivably ugly. We seek forgiveness when we find it difficult to forgive. We ask for people to be held accountable and shy away from personal responsibility. We’re a funny species – which makes me wonder why we came up with ‘oxymoron’ – it’s not a particularly appealing word.
And yet –
Faith is unassailable. Small wonders are unassailable – the magnificence of a child delighting in the way a flower yields to its touch; the silliness of dancing while taking a walk (me, with my earphones on, and yes, I did make sure there was no one around); those kinds of hugs where you feel completely surrounded by love and warmth; sunlight on spiderwebs…
And somehow it is through that prism that we look everyday – how we hold our days, each other, our lives. Through its angles we are fractured and we are gorgeous, a spectrum of dualities that make no sense and yet belong together. So I repeat, go figure..
Waiting for the Karma Truck 
Amazing post – got me right in the gut.
Ah, thanks Julie…you’re super.
So thoughtful and real. Thanks.
Thank you! It’s hard to write these things that I know we all ponder at different times, and try not to sound too trite or corny..
I absolutely love this, honey, and I felt it, all the way down to my toes. Love you so, so, so….
Love you honey…thank you thank you…for all of it and more..xox
Beautifully written, and so well communicated.
Joni Mitchell’s, Both Sides Now played through my head while reading this. Lol. In all seriousness, finding the right balance in all this contradiction is quite a challenge.
Laughing…I’m with you! And balance? There’s balance in all of this? 😉
Always, always, dear Mimi, you are so profoundly honest, movingly self-deprecating and, as ever, an exemplar for your friends and admirers. I remember and recall so many of your written reflections with at least as much frequency as I hum Joni Mitchell’s sung ones. Thank you for sharing them. Thank you for owning and sharing “both sides now” … xxx
Would it be too far of a reach to tell you how often you inspire me to sit down for a moment and let these thoughts course through my fingers? Perhaps a literal reach, yes, given the distance between our shores..but on another very real level – it is so true..xx
This :
“I believe in humankind despite our reiterative behaviors of intentional cruelty and deplorable injustice. It exists within the same construct as acts of graciousness and generosity that I witness everyday. I cry over both. And a sunrise can be as comforting as a sunset. Go figure.”
People sometimes dub my views on life as naive, but this, I so believe in this.
Naive? I am arguably of an age where naivete is not considered particularly understandable. And yet, I think it is a simple truth – and impossibly complicated duality – so, I’m right there with you!
Somehow and sadly, I think a lot of 20s year olds either need to be reminded of this, or they simply choose to see an incredibly skewed view of reality that is social media and the cynicism that revolves around our young (and awkward) dynamics and love lives.
And perhaps that is at the heart of all of us really – we engage in cynical dialogue and judgments for which we would hate to be victims of and yet we feel so passionately about much that we see…Perhaps age tempers some of that cynicism for many; perhaps not. But hold on to the you that is wonderfully you – seeing the glorious and the inglorious – and feeling all of it..
Your thought- and heart-provoking post reminded me about the duality that comes from cynicism and how easy it is to be cynical at any given moment or about any event, yet how hard cynicism makes the lives of cynics and others over the long term.
So true Russ…so true..
Bloody great post really so thought provoking and one that got to me and chocked me up just a tad
Thank you! Tho’ I’m sorry for the choking up part…
Moved. And I am closing in on your line of thinking friend. I paused and stopped at “Faith is unassailable. Small wonders are unassailable…” Yes. All beautiful.
Thank you pal….trying to make sense out of the whirlwind tha is my head sometimes.😉
very touching –
Than you, Beth…
We are all connected and affect each other through our thoughts, beliefs and actions. Your open, honest expressions are always wonderful to read Mimi 🙏🏻💚
I wish all our connections felt as wonderful as your comments. Thank you so much!
Ahhh, those kinds of hugs. Warned by the thought alone. And I believe your sister is insightful. Lovely reflection, Mimi.
Thank you, Eric-and yes, my sister is insightful, beautiful inside and out – and one of those huggers..
Suspect you caught my typo. Warned was meant to read warmed. 🙂
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Thank you for sharing from your soul Mimi. A wonderful post to bring us all together in an authentic pace of reflection and awe. xo
Your warmth and kindness leap off the page, Val…thank you!
I loved this, Mimic! My friend Roxanne (ironically, I wrote about her yesterday) was that type of hugger… first time caught me off guard as my family doesn’t (don’t?) do hugs of more than a fraction of a second..
Lovely post–beautifully written and elegantly conveyed. And your blog site is wonderful. I’m so glad Eric introduced me to you. Looking forward to following you.
Hi Donna, thank you so much for your generous comments and for sharing them with me! So glad you’re here..
Thank you! Eric reblogged this 🙂 Blessings.
Thankfully they guide us ever inward, to find that ‘thing’ or ‘happiness’ that we seem to be missing in our lives.
And being the yin yang of everything it teaches us so much…slowly showing love, where once hate resided…happiness, where once sadness lived.
And in that balance a wisdom is found…and an understanding that ‘life’ is only a guide to that love of self.
When we die, nothing else comes with us…but what we feel within. And after a lifetime of all that!…’Go figure!’ 😀
Great post, it is well written, and a tale we must all face. Thank you for sharing 🙂
Hellos! I popped in from Eric’s blog. I love your use of words!
And well, we were born from a ONE-ness into duality…to experience the world and all that it has to offer. And I am guessing just as we re-learn how to become one again…so too will our experiences and this world.
Thank you for sharing!
So good to hear from you again Mimi. I immensely enjoyed both of your posts. Every word is poetic and meaningful while revealing the beautiful person you are. You are living and loving and sharing in a very spiritual way and I am always grateful to hear from you; you make a difference. xo Fran
Hi Fran…so, so good to o hear from you. That you would think I make a difference…even in the smallest moment – fills my heart. Thank you…xo,m
Hello my friend. I dropped in via Eric’s re-posting of your wonderful words.. I especially liked your perspective “And somehow it is through that prism that we look everyday”.. So true.. We look at life through our own perspective, And totally agree with this statement “So much for the theory that it can be absolutely one thing or another. Life is beautiful and unforgivably ugly. We seek forgiveness when we find it difficult to forgive. We ask for people to be held accountable and shy away from personal responsibility.”
And that is a great key within our world We are so easy to blame everyone else and yet can not see the world is but a reflection of ourselves.. We fail to look in our own mirror and see our own faults of judgments and prejudices as we are so indoctrinated within our ways of thinking we can not even see our thought process is being in judgment most of the time.. We label and put into boxes and if they do not fit our own measurements we cast them out as outcasts..
As you can see I could go on.. Sorry its gone on so long too.. lol.
Lovely post and love your blog title… What goes around comes around.. 🙂
Love and Blessings
Sue
Hi Sue…I love your comments…never too much or too long!😉 Blessings, m
🙂 Thank you.. Have a Blessed Day x
Beautifully expressed and I agree as I age I am driven to live, love and laugh more deeply.
Kath.
Thank you very much, Kath…
the silliness of dancing
while taking a walk
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little joys within
big moments
Indeed…
It’s never too late to read a great piece of reflection, Mimi. Simply put, I loved it.
I am SO touched…thank you!
A balanced view offers much. Thank you for sharing your thoughts!
Reblogged this on The Beacon in the Sky.
Thank you!
I found the article from Tony’s blog. Your words are authentic and genuine. Thank you.