Day: February 28, 2026

Hi my friend,

Yes, I have to cop to the fact that the title of this post is pretty poor. If you can think of something better, let me know 🥴.

Spring is stirring here, which is amazing given that spring has yet to spring. But there is no denying that the forsythia are awake, some trees are beginning to unroll their leaves and lawns are hinting that something better is in their future. I feel that it would be remiss not to notice, given the sense of urgency that arrives with all of this activity and the silent request that we pay attention.

And yet, I’m not there yet. I still exist in this headspace that aches for a revival of ‘newness’. Yet, the fact remains that I ricochet between disbelief and fear, with some anger in the middle. Where is gratitude? Grace? Hopefulness? I’m trying, I really am. It feels like somewhere I turned in the wrong direction and am now living in a backward space. I know I’m not alone, I know that I have been lucky and blessed, and feel guilty that I don’t hang out in that reality more often.

”When one is in a mess…one has no right to worry about the idiocy of one’s own psychology, but must do the next thing with diligence and devotion and earn the goodwill of others. In every littlest thing you do in this way you will find yourself. [Everyone has] to do it the hard way, and always with the next, the littlest, and the hardest things.” Carl Jung

To paraphrase – suck it up buttercup.

So, I’ve started going to the gym (don’t pat me on the back, it’s not a habit yet). I’m making a conscious choice to notice what is around me that is wondrous, and with a little diligence, can always see something. I am disillusioned by so much, my challenge is to balance that out with some good stuff too.

Small steps…small steps. This is a new persona for me, thinking a bit like Lily Tomlin – “I worry no matter how cynical you become, it’s never enough to keep up.” It’s tough not to feel jaded and dismissive. It’s arguably what one is faced with these days. Small steps, small steps…I’m not giving up with resignation; I’m heading straight for the spring.

Hope your day is great

Mimi